Stressed Out.....

In the words of TI, Wasssssssup Was Happenin? Raye here in the building AGAIN! Crazy day I've had, thanks to me. Ive been stressed out all week for various reasons, but today, today I hit an all time stress high for the week. I couldn't even finish my workout this morning. I'm in the 2nd week of this workout I'm doing to lose some of the fat around my stomach, which has always been a problem area for me. In 7 weeks, i'll let u know how it goes. ANYWAYS, so yea, I couldn't finish my workout. My stomach was hurting. I lost my appetite, and I was pissed off. When I get stressed, my mind races a million times a minute. My mom worries about my stress, actually because it def raises my anxiety levels, which I've had problems with in the past (it runs in the fam). My grandpa's in the hospital, I miss my fam a bunch, and some other situation has had me stressed out all week....maybe i'll explain on a later date...maybe. All I know is, it's crazy how we let past storms rain down on today's sunshine....just completely let it overshadow all the sun rays beamin down from the sky. That's what I've been doing this past week. Thanks to momma Davis' words of encouragement, I'm feeling better. I constantly have to keep telling myself, let the past be the past. I have to learn how to enjoy today. My mom is amazing. Idk what I'd do w/out her.

I'm sittin here, waitin on my homegirl to come pick me up for a night out with the chics, watchin The Insider. WTF is up with this chic who is supposedly selling her virginity, then using the money to pay for college?!?! I mean, I aint one to judge, cuz Lord knows I have no room, and NO I haven't sold my body...DAMN, but seriously?! Dang, that was 1 hell of a run on sentence. I'm just sayin though, WTF?!

And then Palin....idk, the Republicans have me speechless. 1 thing that does bother me is that why is everyone trippin about Palin's daughter's pregnancy and her baby daddy? WTF does her personal life have to do with her role as potential vice president? By no means am I voting Republican, but Palin is def doing her thing. She's a woman who's showing other woman that you can have it all if you put your mind to it....SUCCESS and FAMILY. The thing that's crazy is that, yea people are talking about how her 17 yr. Old daughter is preggars and what not. Can you imagine if Obama's daughter was preggars....the ENTIRE republican party would be in a COMPLETE uproar....and you know it. He's black AND his daughter is fitting into the stereotype. WTF?! Lol...crazy. Because it's Palin, its bad, but not AS bad.

Another thing that blows my mind about the Republican party...is it not crazy that there are something like 27 million Americans in poverty?? And we're supposed to be one of the richest countries in the world...right? I mean we gotta do better. Yes, I was born into a family who isn't starvin, but by no means RICH. Yes, I've had the blessing to have 2 parents (married for over 30 yrs...ballin) to support, guide, and love me unconditionally. It's not just about me though, it really isn't. And it's not just about you either. What about the others who don't have what I have. Do they deserve to live through generations and generations of poverty?? Nah cuzzzz....NOPE! I mean there are so many other aspects that go along with that, but that'd take days to write. OBAMA.....and not just cuz he's colored.

In the meantime ima enjoy this weekend with the girls and pray to God that my stress levels will decrease. It's the worst feeling ever. You know what would make my week end so much better??? My Colts beating the Vikings this week. ;-) If we start the season off 0-2............
...you know what?? I don't even wanna think about that!

Index and the middle finger....
-Raye